The epitome of Suburbia

I'm just a teenage girl with a whole lot of shit bottled up. I always feel like I'm falling into some deep depression. I'm only happy when I'm with my friends, but lately it feels like they're falling away from me too. They are all wound up in their boyfriends and the hottest celebrities while I sit in the corner reading Lord of the Rings for the twentieth time and listening to Elvish music and Genesis. I know that nothing will come of my life because I'm caught in the epitome of suburbia. I'm overweight, although I eat rarely. I've become so obsessed with my weight that I've even tried to make myself throw up. The only guy I've ever wanted is with a slut who always seems to pull him away from me. I've thought about suicide. I've thought about how much simpler everything would be if there was nothing at all. I've chosen the spot wear I would do it. I've even picked out the knife. Whenever I feel the most hurt, I curl up in that spot, holding the knife, and I cry. I really hope someone is reading this. Please comment if you are. I need to know that there is SOMEBODY out there. Someone who cares to take two seconds to leave a comment. You took all the time to read this far, now please just leave a comment. Help me!